Hancurlah Hati Puteri - Lagi

'Will you, William Philip Arthur..'

Kalau husband I nama dia William Philip Arthur, I tak singkat-singkat dah, panggil bee ke yang ke abang abang ke. I panggil dia William Philip Arthur ahh.

'Wlliam Philip Arthur, mehla makan..'



Ya Allah handsomenyaaaaaaaaaa...



Hey boleh ke nanti I kawen laki I please pakai baju askar?? :(

Pesawat AirAsia berlepas tanpa aku jadi isi perutnya

And another cousin got married tanpa aku jadi saksinya.

This is twist of fate, untuk orang yang tidak fancy salji dan Europe seperti Ain dihantar outstation ke Belgium pada musim winter.

Kenapa tak hantar Kartika Malini?

You see, bak kata Yuna - Coffee, with my everything, I'd give anything to be with you.

I would give up anything for my family, but at some point, I just couldn't.

My God, I feel cheap, when people start to think that I would even trade my time and memory with the family with money.

I can't even begin to think how cheap they think of me?

But I'm not alone, I'm with the other 8 of us who, at some point, thought they were gonna be somewhere else instead of here at this moment.

This will somehow some way pay in the future, InsyaAllah.

I don't mind my cousins, they are bunch of the best people. They understand.

Masalah Problem

Hari hari me and mother bercerita pasal gossip Aidil dan Rita.



To me, kesian Aidil. at the age of 23-24, dah ada problem rumahtangga bla bla. Like, he's so young. nasiblah kawin dengan janda tua.

Football player international at the age of 23 baru nak hidup kot (read : CR7) unless Rooney lahhh haha

tapi, apa problem yang sesuai dengan umur 23-24 ni sebenarnye? kalau problem dengan crush lagi kesian kot. macam i. tak habis habis problem crush.

crush kat oversea lah. crush nak kawen la. crush gay la. crush crush crush.

crush lama pon dah jadi crush balik. loser sangat.



terima kasih Laila sebab pernah cakap muka I macam Faezah Elai. Walaupon!

images : google.

Packing, Done.

No natural talent. Just Do It.

I keep all my shoe boxes. Some of these are even from UTP days (Le Sport Sac, kasut cap ayam. Hehe)


Misc Box 1


Misc Box 2


Handbags


Shoes


Not in Pic; Bag of clothes to wear, Bag of clothes to bring, Box of clothes to donate.

Aihh. Mixed feeling.

Wad 2 Intan, HUSM, Kubang Kerian.

All of us are back in Kota Bharu. Not all, but most. This is heartbreaking in so many ways.

My uncle was warded 2 days ago due to his stage 4 brain cancer. The cell is very active, there's no way to make it less. We are prepared, as prepared as we can be.

"It's a matter of Quality and Quantity. Do you want him to stay alive longer but suffer; or to let him go before the pain really kicks in"

"Everyone dies; it's just a matter of how,"

For all we know, eventho the doctors said it may not be long for him, WE could go first. We never know.

Whatever He decides is best for him, we believe it was made best for all of us too.

This is heartbreaking in so many ways.

1 July 2010

Dearest Raja, Ain, and Seema.

Right now most prolly you guys are already on your way to Kuala Besut for Perhentian. Heck I should be on my way too. But something happened and dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki I'm so sorry I have to back out.

First the leave issue, then the Uncle issue. Just now mother called and asked me to talk to my uncle. I couldn't. I cannot listen to his voice. It breaks my heart each time I remember that he's in pain.

I'm just not in the right place and mood for a holiday.

I know I seemed so selfish but I've talked to Raja and I know she understands. I'm very hoping she would find the best way to deliver this news to you two.

I am torn between being selfish and inconsiderate or insensitive and immature but whatever I picked I'll be the bitch in the situation so I took the risk.

You guys more than anyone else know that for me, my family comes first. I am so sorry that you guys have to bear with this fact every time something came up but trust me, I have gone beyond my power and will to make it happen and convince myself that it is ok, BUT everything seems to come to no avail.

Now you guys have to bear with all the cost that I should be bearing. I apologize but the best I can do is to at least promise I will make it up to you.

At least, the next time we gather, we will have enough people to play cards :D

(but I totally understand if you won't take my words anymore. 1st Brunei, then Perhentian. I keep on backing out ain't i? bad!)

I'd rather not be in Perhentian and regret it for the entire lifetime than to be there but regret it should something happen (knock knock *God Forbid*).

Hope you guys enjoy your stay. I'm going to unpack all my swimming attires, new aviator glasses, skirts, shortpants, sleevies, sunblock lotion and my new flip flop back to where it belongs. Until next time. maybe next time.

Again, truly from the bottom of my heart, Sorry.



You guys are still the best <3

Love,
Zac.

24 June 2010

I'm losing hopes towards Germany. They should be able to take down Ghana but as of now, the 35th minutes, i don't see anything like dat.


*from FIFA website*

Aahh. Just bought the black Germany jersey from brother and saving it to wear at least at the semi but guess have to return without refund. sucks.

Tolonglahhh do somethingggg counting on you guys (not that i have any bet or anything!)

(edit)* aaaaaaaahhhaaa!!! baru cakap xnak support sikit dh gelabah kannnnn germany. haha. u made it thruuuu :D:D*(edit)

on the other note;

Bye bye Saniah and Fizah, the practical trainees, 2 of our futsies. Now we are short of 1 striker and 1 goalkeeper, sobs.

Terima kasih sebab menjadi sebahagian daripada kami and don't stop futsal-ing. Ok.


Futsies @ farewell dinner for trainees.

bye bye korang. best of lucks!

11 May 2010

Orang kata kalau kita nak tinggalkan sesuatu, tinggalkan masa kita tengah sayang. Jangan pergi masa kita benci.

So that forever pun kita ada memori yang baik-baik sahaja.

Bila sesuatu musibah datang, selalulah berfikir dengan positif. Sometimes, it helps.

Bila kesusahan datang, ingat masa yang lebih susah. Kalau tidak ada, ingat masa yang senang. Maka, terima ini sebagai ujian.

Kadang-kadang ujian datang awal supaya nikmat yang diberi kemudian akan dirasakan dengan lebih syukur.

Kadang-kadang ujian datang sebagai balasan atas sesuatu yang pernah dilakukan. Maka, bersyukur, still. Sebab Tuhan masih ingat pada kita.

Lepas tu saling sama mengingati pon ok, yang kita ni semua tak akan pernah berada diatas. dunia ni pusing macam roda tau. seriously.

bottom line is, semua benda dalam dunia ini bersifat sementara. Sedangkan nyawa lagi dipinjamkan, apalagi pangkat dan wang ringgit.

OK?

11 Februari 2010

Minggu ini minggu yang stress.

Matchmake.

My mom tried to matchmake me with someone. I don't mind when she finds a guy and give him my number, as long as she doesn't talk about the future.

I'm too young (at heart) for commitment.

Having a husband doesn't scare me. In-laws do. Seriouslyyyy.

Stress dah situ satu kali sampai terjerit-jerit dalam kereta bila dia duk ulang-ulang cakap pasal dat guy.

Result : Dah tak ada cerita pasal beliau.

Mok Cik

Stress gila tengok my aunty masuk hospital sebab isap rokok AND YET no one around me tried to make an effort to stop. SERIOUSLY!!! omg omg stress nyerrrrr.

Duit

Tak ada duit dah bulan ni la bulan nak buat semua benda pegi KL je dh brape juta kali pastuh servis kerete lah ape lah. ni weekend nk balik kb lagi hadoiii

Balik Kampung

Mula-mula I taknak balik pasal clash ngan Ain bertunang. Then mama cakap tak apa dia tunggu habis majlis, kitorang bertolak pas habis Ain tunang. Den tibe-tibe die suruh I naik bas pulak. I cakap kalau naik bas tak sempat sampai in time for majlis Ayah Chik so might as well x balik. dia cakap ambik bas pagi sempat.

I have to repeat AIN BERTUNANG LIKE 7 TIMES KOT before die btol-btol paham yang I TAKKAN switch the engagement with anything else.

Geram tak rasaaaa. Stressssssssss.

Tapi nasib baik last-last dia agree untuk tunggu jugak. So that's it kalau tuka decision lagi alamatnya tak baliklah aku.

Kerja

Kerja biasalah bila nak cuti lama ni time-time ni la semua orang nak semua benda. Yang tak cuti ni jadik mangsa. Time-time kronik macam ni boleh tak kalau tak EL. Macam cilakakkkk jer.

Break up.

I still tak boleh terima this one particular break up problem. Memang lah bukan my problem but dah jadik fitrah aku kalau Puteri ngan Reza break up dalam Gol&Gincu pon aku yang over stress apetah lagi yang jadik betol-betol depan mata.

Hoepfully minggu depan minggu yang happy. Dapat jumpa kawan kawan and harapannya ialah korang jangan bagi masalah kat aku lagi dahhh!

And hopefully kat Kota Bharu dapat jumpe little Kids Amalin ke yayang ke dira ke legalah siket perasaan.

Minggu stress cepatlah berlalu.

ps: I think I jadi over stress sekarang pasal susah nak menangis. Dulu ade problem sket menangis lebih so cepat lega. Ni mcm sakittttt je rase tapi x leh lepas.

28 Januari 2010

I think I am shoe-cursed.

All shoes in the world are mad at me. Because I bought them and just keep em in my shoe rack and never wear them. I have almost 10 shoes that I never wear. Or wore once. 10 is a big number for someone who's not making that much like me.


Kalau ada ni tak payah beli lain dahhh -Aldo (Source:Google)-

So last night, when I was shoe hunting (despite the almost-10-shoes, I REALLY NEED A PAIR OF NEW ONE) all the shoes are either too outdated, too high, too low, too bright, too dull, too ordinary, too expensive, or I already got something similar.


I want I want i wannnnn -Aldo (Source:Google)-

Butttt I found a pair of wedges. 2inches, just nice. Brown, just nice. Braided style, just nice. RM59.90, just nice. I asked for my size, and kabish, OUT OF STOCK. Damn it!

Something like this Nine West (source:Google)

So please, all the shoes in the world, let the curse off me. I reaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllyyy need a new pair that is suitable for everything - Leisure, office, baju kurung, pants, dress.

T_T Jimmy Choo (Source:Google)

*cryyy*

Signed by,
Badly need an Aldo, a Jimmy Choo or a Manolo Blahnik.

26 Januari 2010

Skin problems.

Why is it my skin so dry? I'm drinking like 6L water per day and I still can feel my skin SOOOO dry.


*Sehari 3 kali tambah air*

My palms DONT sweat even when I'm outside and sometimes it even bleed sb kering sangat. Mak mertua sure tak aprove LOL.

And my face, menggelupas macam kulit durian. I nak macam kulit betik or bontot baby pleaseeee. Ni dah macam bontot Pink dah haha

How do I fix this? Do I need to start doing facial or atleast use a facial cleanser? I never use one, my skin is too sensitive for a facial wash or even compact powder.

Ada cadangan tak. Please please cik memey in need. Sedih gile kulit muke menggelupas........


Boleh Nampak gelupasan gelupasan durjana itewwwwwwwwwwww

I lost the key to freedom.

I lost the gold bracelet with my name written on it that was given by my parents for my 21st birthday.


Sangat sedih. Gelang ni banyak sangat jadi saksi untuk seribu kenangan. Now it's gone =(

Don't ask me how. Enough to remind me of how stupid I was for not taking it off before the trip to Gambang Waterpark.

But things happened.

Anyway, Saturday was exhausting! Gambang Waterpark, Karok, 2012. And I'm totally broke!



tengok. Dalam Gambar ni, I feel perfect with the bracelet. Now, rasa macam bogel!

ps: sampai demam semalam teringat kat gelang yang dah hilang =(

I missed a call from Germany

Lalim called, all the way from Germany. But I was asleep.

It took me 2 diverted calls before I finally realised (both) phone(s) are ringing.

Macam gila sekejap at 2am received a call from an unknown number. I thot it was my mum who's currently at Bandung.

So I answered the phone only to be suprised with a man's voice.

'LALLLIIIMMMMMMM!!!'

Menjerit Lalim (as in, darling) in the middle of the nite? tengah2 malam buta? the neighbours must have thought I was doing the nasty nasty. Haha.

So we chatted, we talked, it feels like he's next to me. It feels like yesterday I sent him to KLIA. It feels like, he's so near.

He asked me about his girl, I asked him about my guy. Heh. He's still the one who understood me the most. Giving me all the comforting words and jokes and laughters.

UNTIL, THE BATTERY DECIDED TO DIE ON ME! demit demit demit.

AAA. AAA. AAA.

That feeling, argh. Geramnyeh! Stupid phone. Stupid stupid stupid.

Oh BTW, the n80 has finally stop functioning (as handphone) now. It can't make calls, sometimes it can't receive calls, it cannot send SMS. It is now fully functioning as my gossip camera, MP3 player and jeng jeng jeng, Celcom Broadband Modem.

Hee. Maybe it's time for a new phone. Ehem. Presenting *drumrollls*


*handphone saki baki ayahanda*

Duit guwe memang juta-jutain tapi guwe enggak mampu lagi dong mau beli LG Prada! Haha

See you guys, hopefully, very very very soon. Because less than 24 hours, now, I'll be flying to Jakartaaaaa babeh. (on MAS! he he he)

Temuin Lagi ya Dong! Daa~

Hilang

Orang kata, bila dengar satu kematian, kematian-kematian akan terus datang.

Pagi kelmarin, we received a news from Che Awi. Atuk Harun at Johor was found not breathing in his bed. Previously that night he complained of suffocating, but managed to go to sleep however.

Then the next morning, he passed away peacefully in his sleep.

Sounds familiar, ey? Yes, that was how our beloved Tok Wae passed away too. Orang baik Tuhan kurangkan seksa ajalnya, mungkin?

And then I read Ieja's blog. I'm sorry for your loss, dear.

And earlier this morning, when we all were busy with our chores, one of us was fighting with the water.

and lost to it.


Inalillah to Shida Adnan (UTP Civil July 04)

Semoga roh mereka ditempatkan di sisi mereka yang soleh dan solehah. Amin

Today I cried in the office =(

Tension.

I am not a robot; don't come to me and tell me to do things at an instant.

Cranky.

Sebab pagi tadi bangun pukul 5 pagi and drive laju-laju to an empty office; no officemates for consultation and advise but fussy users with all urgent and important things.

Sedeh.

Sebab semalam at this time I baru je start tido after a whole lots rounds of card games and karaoke with cousins; now I'm back to office.

Sudahnya;
kunci pintu, bersila bawah meja; menangis seorang!
(konon masalah macamlah rumah runtuh dihempap tanah)

Rindu is overrated. But 10 days now; an SMS a day won't do me any good.

I was terrified I cried;

The first task was they have to differentiate all the rempah-ratus;
I freaked out. What the hell is BUAH PELAGA? Shit.

Then they have to prepare a dish; Blackpepper Chicken.
I almost wet my pants. Shit. Ayam mentah-mentah belum potong!

Then they have to make Fish Curry; Diorang basuh ikan, tak buang perut!
I almost cried; I pon tatau how to basuh ikan and buang perut ikan!

Then Fahrin read this pantun;

Adik menangis teresak-esak,
Dipujuk oleh kakak yang tua;
Gadis Melayu yang pandai memasak,
Jadi pilihan ibu mentua.

At this point, I cried! And housemate gelak terguling-guling.

Adoi. I promised myself not to watch Gadis Melayu again. Entah-entah next week diorang kene menjahit, aku yang pengsan kat sini!

Sama, ke?

Adek cakap;



and then I asked her which one, and she gave me this:

Flattered lah pulak kan! (bukan ape; I everyday tengok cerita tuh; I secretly wished I had her personality and beauty ah ah ah)

Oh BTW, things get a tad bit emotional eh, lately. People are graduating, saying goodbyes and see yous, but knowing deep down inside things are just gonna change.

Tho my time has passed 6 months ago; I still cry inside. Sedih!

I wish we never have to say goodbye; but an end means a beginning to something new.

Tapi, waktu-waktu dulu memang seronok habis, kan?

Lots of Love.

Stupid Monday Blues!

First;

Taking Starbucks Toffee Nut Latte after dinner was a bad idea. The caffeine only kicked in AFTER I was ready to go to sleep. So another round of a whole Grey's Anatomy Season 1 before I went to sleep at God-knows-whatever time.

Second;

Always ALWAYS ALWAYS remember to draw some money whenever the purse ran out of it. All of a sudden the ATM machine broke down this morning.

Third;

Stupid fire drill that blocks the gate. No one can leave the compound until it is said so. I'M HUNGRY AND MONEYLESS.

Fourth;

I'm left alone, again, today. All the colleagues are everywhere. I'm alone and clueless in this office. I hate it when people asked;

'Si A ade? Takde? Si B? Si C? Si D? Oh, selain you, sape yang ade kat opis?'

Why? Am I not good enough to attend to your stupid requests?

Fifth;

Even the bus drivers are on leave for Raya Haji. Demmit.

I need a break. Seriously!