You took my heart away.

To all girls, who once have fought for their relationship, but get dumped by their ex-boyfriends anyways.
Here's a thought.
You are not the loser - for getting dumped. He is not a loser too - for letting you go.
Don't say that just to please yourself. Stop with all this woman power shit.

But, you once were a fighter, for wanting to work things out, when he chose to walk away.

So, no one loses here, but at least, you fought for it.
Be that person who always want to work things out and know that even if it didn't work out, you have done your part. 

To quote a cousin;
All these can't-haves, might-ifs and should-bes is a potent recipe for chronic over thinking. Let's just be thankful for the problems that we don't have

Excuse me and my emotional moment. I have been dwelling in the sad sad part of Grey's Anatomy and it kinda affect me. Bad bad Grey's Anatomy.

Kitchen

Ever since we moved into our new house (we; me and my brother, new house; not so new house but a new place for us) i have developed a new passion, and it is cooking. Haha it's not really passion (passion is too deep) it's just, something I enjoy doing.

My friends, who knew me too well, know that this is a lifetime achievement. I don't cook, it's just not my forte. Our place came with a nice kitchen and I love spending time in it. So since we moved in I spent most time at home, cooking and just chilling watching TV or not. Sometimes all a woman need is a nice kitchen to start functioning as one haha.

I love to cook, yes, but it's not top notch. But when I cook I made people eat them. My poor brothers, cousins, and friends are my victims so far. I constantly bug people to come hang out at my place so I can feed them. Later they'll be 'omg the crazy cooking lady again, pretend to be sleeping!!'

Just so you know, if you're not doing anything anytime, please let me know. I really love hosting people and you will get to eat my lousy cooking sometimes.

7 years today

7 years ago I reported duty to my first ever employer.
7 years later look where I am now.

I remember a few years back I talked to a cousin who resigned after 7 years of employment.
'Why must you quit? 7 Tahun, mesti banyak gaji!' - so naive me.

Look at me now, 7 years, I'm a laughing stock.
But syukur masih ada kerja #syukurselalu

ps: you want to read that link. i mentioned something about being 29 7 years ago. life is ironic like that.

Genuinely Happy

Ramadhan are going so fast. Remember those days when Ramadhan was dreading. Haha. Those were the ignorant days.

Now. you just can't wait for Ramadhan each year and you didn't want it to end and you just miss it every time it passed. How we have grown. Alhamdulillah.

The other day we had a simple iftar at our usual place and I wanted to perform Teraweh. So I dragged my friends with me. The moment they said OK (of course they are OK they are great people) I was so happy I felt like dancing (how contrary haha). I actually danced tho.

And then another great thing happened. While waiting for Isya' prayer, another friend so randomly walked in OMG it felt like a little party in there.

I was so happy. So genuinely happy. It's a luxury not many got to say, so be thankful.

Tu baru jumpa kat masjid. Macamana lah kalau jumpa kat syurga. I SO DESPERATELY wanna go to syurgaaa (with my friends) weyyyy.

We kept on talking about that little coincidence of how we stumbled upon each other there and she keeps on saying People who go to Masjid together stay together. Amin.

So many things to improve yet the progress is too slow, but hopefully we are all on track. Hopefully.

Slow down, Ramadhan. Let us pick up.

Post Celebration

Still talking about my birthday, guys. Yes. Because I'm party gal like that.

Few months ago I found out the Phuket is pronounced as PU-KET instead on FU-KET haha OMG why. I have been FUKET all my age, it's all a lie. How did it suddenly became important to me? Because we decided for turning 30 Cik Ilah deserves a weekend away (in PUKET that is!)

So, one week after my birthday, we flew to Phuket. One birthday girl, one self centered belated birthday girl, and a happy family of Pink, Naurah and Lepp.

One of the famous question I got prior coming back from #ilah30Phuket is, how is it travelling with an infant. Tell you what, Naurah, not ordinary infant. She's very easy to handle and my god such a sweetie pie too.

It was a quality holiday, heavenly food, funny painful thai massages (that we kept craving for more), crazy people and lots of beach. I could use a beach holiday anytime anyway.

and last Friday, my Onthursday girls treat me to a Karaoke session. My birthday is now complete. I shall age gracefully towards 30!

29

They say you are not rich until you have things that money can't buy.
I wondered what it's like to have both. I don't anymore.

This has to be put here, because for the first time in my life, I don't care if I get a birthday wish from any particular guy (the kind of peace of mind you get when all your crush are married). As a matter of fact, I don't care about any wishes anymore. But you sweet people do anyways.

And, the amazing people I live with (#truestory). What did I do to deserve this.

Spoilt by cakes on my birthday weekend, what else is new.

And somebody also turns 29 on the same week (because May babies are awesome like that).

Thank you for being such an amazing friend.

Oh Allah, I pray that people I love are blessed with the same blessings that you have given me. 

Alhamdulillah.

The Best Wish

The best wish one can get on her Birthday is, 'We are so blessed to have you in the family'

I couldn't ask for more.
As much as it is so cliche, the best thing about my life is still my family and friends.

How did I get so lucky.

p.s: I let Aaron go last week. things happened for a reason. Maybe the worst decision I've ever taken. But I believe in all the good things.