I now appreciate the last 5 months, more.

The rest of this post is pretty private, but WTH.

So I had my period today. it has been 5 months. yes. I missed my mens for 5 months. people around me who (pretend to, or not) care, keep asking me to go check. BLOODYHELL WHAT TO CHECK DOWN THERE?

my mum was so worried that I may have develop more testosterone since I've been watching more football lately. yes as much as it souns so not scientifically relevant or at least logic, I know deep down inside she must have been worried I may have grown a penis.

And the day is here. I FORGOT HOW BAD THE STOMACH CRAMP IS. and I'm not that type who suffer during her period. My period symptoms is mild, as such on my first day I can still drink ice and go jogging (not that i do it anyway). Some girls, they just have to tuck in their bed and do nothing while they lost lots of blood. I'm just lucky.

I wonder why this past 5 months I've been wanting this stomach cramp shit and all, bloodyhell everyone just wanna be normal it hurts!!

And the mood swing, I just snap at everyone including my boss.

Oh my period hormones are bad.

Guys, appreciate your girls. Seriously this is a torture so that you all can have all your sex pleasure and someone to carry your name in the future, but wth, you go and OFFER US PAYUNG EMAS DI SYURGA?

ARE YOU LIKE SERIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS?

Hai lama tak update blog.

Dari kota lumpur ke kota baru naik flight.
Dari kota bharu ke Manik urai naik bas lompat-lompat.

all for my bestfriends' wedding.



Haida got married!

Aswad and Shira got married finally.
Cousie Sikwan got engaged to fiance Rais.

I wish I am more the type of ' TOLONG AMBIK GAMBA..'

This is my bloody weekend? engagement and weddings? growing up sucks.

Nasib baik heroes bawa balik gold medal. i fell in love again!!



FADHLI SHAS, PUTUSKAN EFFA, BERCINTALAH DENGANKU!

Its November.

waw sedar tak sedar dah november. it means dah setahun i meninggalkan Kuantan. Tinggalkan iPerintis. Said hello to Kl, hello to HP.

wah kan i dah sedikit rasa sentimental.

cepatnya masa. i datang sini magh preggie, now maryam, dah almost 1 year. Aisha drive kancil lagi masa tu, now WUS nak habis road tax dah kan? it means also almost 1 year dah tak jumpa nett.

November means a lot of things. LOTS OF JEMPUTAN KAHWIN. seriously KENAPA KORANG GILA SANGAT DENGAN DATE 111111 2011 1011 WATSOEVER NI? to us IT grads its just BINARY CODE! haha

and november also means, THE BREAKING DAWN IS AROUND THE CORNER!



#TEAMJACOB FOR LIFE!

ps: i seriously hate the remark 'BACA BUKU DIA LAGI BEST' if you know me well, YOU KNOW I DONT READ! i dont read books ok, stop the remarks!

oh, me and Aisha went to watch the final piala malaysia. which also means, its about 1 year since i started gila pergi tengok bola! hehe.



oh and, WELCOME BACK ALIAH! WE HAVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH!

to more years and cheers!

So Random

I know it's too much too shed a tear seeing Maryam grows teeth and all, but I can't help it.


Maryam. From Mummy's Blog.

Baby why you grow up so fast. You make me feel old.

Dear girlfriends, remember later when you have babies and I don't care about them as much as I care for Maryam, that's just because when I wanna feel loved, Maryam is here. You girls take TOOOOOOOOOOOOO LONG to reproduce haha.

ps: dear bosses they just know how to deliver bad news don't they. damn it!

MARA IS THE BEST!

OH MY GOD.

hari yang dinantikan telah tibaaaaaa! hurrrrraaaaaahhhhhh!

TODAY THE DAY IS FINALLY HERE.
THE DAY I AM FINALLY OFFFFFFF MARA HOOK!

i've been waiting for today, the day I can call father and screaaaaaam to his ear,
'DAH HABIS BAYARLAHHH AYAHHH!!!!'

hurah hurah hurah!!!

ok walaupon hakikatnya hutang MARA i cuma RM 500++ TAPI LIATNYA YA ALLAH nak bayar sampai Ayah kena remind ALL THE TIME for me to pay (FOR 3 YEARS!!! HAHA)

AND FINALLY, I NEVER THOT THIS DAY WOULD EVER COME!!!!

bye bye bye bye MARA.
and thank you for;

NO BONDED!
NO 10 YEARS WHATSOEVER SERVING
NO RIDICULOUS % OF INTEREST
and most importantly
FLEXIBLE PAYMENT SCHEME!
wth I only have to pay ONE BLOODY % of my total loan!

SYUKUR ALHAMDULILLAH! most importantly.. TERIMA KASIH ALLAH sebab menetapkan rezeki ini untuk saya :D

MARA IS THE BEST! TILL WE MEET AGAIN *hint*

LOVE!

Askar Wataniah

Semenjak jadi askar wataniah ni, i TIDAK PERNAH merasa cuti public holiday. yes I pon tak paham motif sangat kitorang kene kerje public holiday ni. ala-ala menjaga keamanan negara.

so sebulan lepas I cek spreadsheet AND OMG, adakah bumi berputar pada paksinya? kenapa nama I tiada dalam senarai 'BERTUGAS PADA NUZUL QURAN kalau tak rakyat malaysia semua kene jangkitan kusta'.

I pon nekad, mari fully utilise, cuti di tengah minggu, berlagak seperti orang lain yang selalu merasa nikmat public holiday ni.

Start with plan to berbuka puasa bersama exclassmate from Sekolah Rendah. PERHHHH. I got a plan for a public holiday, HOW RARE?

But they bailed out, so the usual suspects, my pwingsehs, decided to just go on. Only that my lalim sibuk-sibuk nak join. yeah, why not.

Cuti Nuzul Quran I bermula dengan movie marathon sampai sahur, masak dan makan sahur, dan akhirnya tidur depan TV lepas Subuh. IYELAH TAK KERJA KAN BESOKNYA.

Bangun menjelang Zohor, mandi sebelum Asar, keluar berfoya-foya ke Kuala Lumpur (yes perlu menganjing ORANG KL yang tak cuti, INI BUKAN SELALU BOLEH BUATKAN???) dan akhirnya berbuka die Ben's Pavillion.



My Spaghetti carbonara



Little early birthday celebration for Bebeb.

Bergosip, mengumpat, tambah order, makan banyak, #fatjoke, main kuiz, feeling horny, luahan perasaan, and everything in between, sampai kena halau.



The Dudes



The Pwingsehs

AWESOME SANGAT PUBLIC HOLIDAY NI KANNNNNNN.



Thank you Pwingsehs and the Dudes, awesome sangat rasa public holiday hari ni. Walaupon tak dapat duit extra yang 1.6juta tu.. iyerlaa kalau kerja public holiday kann dapat beli kondo 7 bilik kat pinggiran KLCC.

Now, kembali menjadi askar wataniah. Raya pon kena kerja, KAU ADA? HAH, ADA?

It's okay to be picky when you have so much to offer.

Perempuan, bila nak cari lelaki, akan cari lelaki yang boleh jadi as good as their father, or more or less.

So when he goes and calls you fat, he has ultimately lost all the hopes and trusts to disappointment and shame.

This is the guy I thought is as good as my father? WHAT WAS I THINKING?

I gotta admit that I have only one point of view for all guys, now. tak kesahlah kau lelaki macam apa pun, in the end kau tetap end up with typical girls.

So yes, a guy can appear with all the lovely charms, but he's always a disapointment.

I think I may have to stop pretending as if I care, as if I am looking forward to meet the true guy, the prince charming, the knight in the shining armour, whatever.

Because they are all the same.



Haih. i cannot pretend like I don't care for this one.
Kalau Fadhli Shas nak I, I takkan say no. Oh.

Saya 25 saya OK

Alhamdulillah yesterday, I hit the big number 25. It was overwhelming.

In the age where people twit and wall you wishes, some still text, bbm and call. Some even twit, wall, bbm, text and call. How beautiful :)

Flowers from the parents, birthday dins from Bebeb, and suprise cakes from the cousins, twice! Subhanallah. Nothing compromise this :)

Speaking of walls, I was overwhelmed to see, how many people decided to check their facebook, see my name on the Birthday list, and Post on my wall. I have to say, you guys have no idea how much I appreciate this. Because I am actually one of those people who sees a name on birthday list and think 'Ah malas lah nk post'.

Almost 200 people on my list actually take the time and wish me well on my birthday. Alhamdulillah.



Thank you everybody. I am 25 (tho my dad thinks im 23; whatever makes him younger!) and I am happy. You guys made my (birth)day *hugs*

Persembahan Dari Shurga

After 8 years, I still dont get it HOW PEOPLE GOT STRAIGHT As in their SPM.

SERIOUSLY.
omg.

I am so proud, SO VERY PROUD like a momma, of my roomate, of my other friends, of my BABY COUSINS T_T my god you guys are geniuses.



The latest 9As product of WCJ.

No seriously? HOW?? OMG.

T_T

30 hours a day

Another happy occasion yesterday when my cousin went merisik her 8-years-girlfriend. Alhamdulillah another step forward.

In the midst of people architecturing their life into the future, i am still left wondering with mystery. As much as being 25 scares me, I somehow feel, I finally belonged to my age.

Finally I'm not too young to do things.

And plus, I just come to realise that MOST of my girlfriends, their sisters don't get married. They have other achievements in life and they live just fine.

Not everyone is lucky to have perfect life.

And that is, depends on you on how to define perfect.

As for me, as much as I'm trying hard to balance the needs of to get everything done in time in order to have so called perfect life, and to take chill pill and just let it flow, things will happen when it happen; I'm fine knowing that life has been pretty good for me.

I am glad that I now have bigger perspective in life.

The only problem is; I belong to the perfect family.

Ahh. I'll take care of them later. Now, chill pill ;p

15 FAQs

Hello. Dah lama tak update blog (attn: Kartika Malini).

Waw so many things to update yet so little time to do it. Ok tipu. Masa bbanyak sangat. But OCCUPIED! Ok tipu jugak. MMAALLLAASS ;P haha.

So. hurm. where to start. Ok, how about this. Tomorrow is my last day here. HEHE. I know, surprise surprise!

Since I got plenty of time today (waw I had plenty of time for the past 4 weeks actually. since I tender my resignation, people had pretty much stop caring about me. haha. Like, if i'm missing from the office, then ok. NOBODY NOTICED cheh. Like, no one even bother. ok too much of explanation) I feel like how about writing about this particular changess in my life.

Yes. Changes.

Questions by questions from Lovely people who still care (waw still got some people who care about me, you guys are sweet :D) and I dont bother explaining to them Like when they asked, what hap? I just said, ahh something. I dont even bother telling, simply because, MALASS haha.

So to those people who always question about my whereabouts, here are the answers to the FAQs ;p

(this is like, so full of myself. feel free to skip it. just writing to kill my time. tick tock tick tock. 9.30am, starts!)

1. What happened to you? (the mosttt common one!)

I resigned. from my current job, and Alhamdullilah, managed to get another job at another company.

2. Which company?


InsyaAllah.

3. Howww?

One day the called me for interview, like, about one month ago. I went for the interview, proceeded to the second stage, immediately been called for shortlisted as hire, the same day. I know, yeay! But I was yet to negotiate the pay and benefits, so everything is confirmed approximately 3days after that.

4. Good money, huh?

Yeah. Not so much, but definitely better ;p

5. SO why you leave?

Because it's important for my career progress blabla haha thats what I said at the interview LOL.

6. Haha, NO. Seriously?!

Haha ok. Seriously, career progress. I feel like at my current company, I'm not getting what I want. Maybe its because they have so many talents already, yet so little opportunity. I need more. Even Raja said I need more challenges in my career. if they got none to offer, I need to find my own.

Other than that, of course it's because a) I don't like it here. b) I want that moar moolah c) I want to be near to KL. totally personal, in no particular order. at times, one tops another.

Ok. another thing is, I know, Rumour has it that Company minyak terkenal itu maybe will be taking this current company back. So, rugilah kan I resign kalau nanti dapat kerja dengan Company minyak itu, waw bestnya.

Let us see it this way, if dah rezeki I untuk kerja dengan company itu, when they offered to loan me money for education purposes 6years back, I WOULD'VE ACCEPT IT. but no, mungkin, rezeki bukan disitu.

7. You don't like it here? Meaning, Kuantan?

Haa, that's the thing. I have moved from Kuantan. Oh waw. Long story.

Before I resigned, I was transferred to Kerteh. When I handed in my resignation letter, the relocation thing still effective. SO like it or not, have to pack up all my things and move back to Dungun and travel 90kms to&fro everyday for work at Kerteh. Sucks right?

So, here, as in, Kerteh. Distance is one of the so many things. Other than that, we shall get a coffee and sit and talk about it, ok? ;p

8. I remembered closely you don't like working in KL. Now, KL jugakkkk ;p

Oh yes I remember closely too that I don't like KL and i still don't. simply because the crowded environtment (always so many people and so many cars everywhere) and the cheap food cooked by the 'immigrants' if you know what I mean. But I have no choice.

But I guess I just have to make do with it. Small matter loer :P

KL is definitely better than Kerteh. Kuantan is the best. I shall go back there one day, maybe in 10 years or 20 years to come LOL.

9. Why you like Kuantan so much? ITS LAMEEE??? Got BF there ehhh?

It's near to everything!!! It's near to KL, near to HOME *Love*, near to beach, near to town, near to the office, near to the movies, near to the futsal courts, EVERYTHING. ok.

plus most restaurants are still using Malay cooks. HAHA. totally racist I know but I cant help it!!!

Bf in Kuantan? Yeah thats the hope! haha

10. So, when are you moving to KL?

InsyaAllah this 6th. I'll be starting on 8th.

11. Stay where?

With a cousin in Puchong. But also looking for a house nearer to CBJ tho.

12. So, you resigned. why still working?

I had to tender 3 months notice. But I was so cannot wait to get lost from here haha, so I only gave 1 month notice. Still have to come to the office for all the handovers and clearance yada yada, but pretty much like a holiday. Come and go as I please lol. Nobody cares anyway. Even if they do, I don't haha.

and about the two months notice I didnt give...

I HAVE TO PAY 2 MONTHS SALARY! ok??!! so they didnt give me any money for October and November, and I still have to pay some! Grr.

So dont expect me to belanja korang or do anything with the money (attn Rumet: SIngapore? NOOO!) because right now I'm fully dependant on FAMA's subsidy :(

13. If I were you, I will not go to the office at all.

That's the thing. it's not that easy WHEN YOU'RE LIVING AT HOME! parents check up on you every single minute. what time you wake up, take shower, went to the office, arrived, come back. what did you eat, with whom. how much did you spend. it's not easy going back to high school, BUT YOU CANNOT SAY NO!

Every single thing also have to report. But no complain here. Its just that, that's the reason haha. Something to do with 'keeping your record clean' and 'saving face' thing. ya ya.

Plus it gets boringggg when you do nothing. everyday also watch TV, from E! to HBO to MTV to ESPN blabla. It just got bored at some point.

14. Will you miss these whole thing?

Sure as hell. I had an easy life. It was easy job, easy money. easy everything. Wanna come home, ok. wnna go to KL, ok. wanna eat this and that, ok. wanna watch football, ok. wanna go holiday, ok. Everything is easy.

But lets see if I can be that small girl who survives big city ;p

I surely miss being that single child who are always demanding and merajuk at home ;p. be dad's lil girl and watch football and badminton together till mama say I NEVER GET IT! be momma's gossipping and telenovela partner. Be brothers' sporting sister. Be Amalin's girls-day-out company everyday. Be home whenever aunties/uncles/cousins visit.

I may get to do this again after this, but not as much as i'm doing now :(

15. So, Raya Haji balik tak? How? Berapa lama? Kahwin Ieyza pegi tak?

OK here's the deal. UNTIL I REPORT DUTY AT MY NEW COMPANY, every plan is totally void! because I am not sure about the leave procedure, the shift thingy, the induction blabla. ok. so. ASK ME THAT LATER.

Wah. I should've warn you that you can skip this post. Haha.

So, I think thats all folks. But, if there's any question that I missed, kindly shoot. Wah. Ala ala press conference gitu.

Till then, tomorrow is going to be a totally different day to me.

Puteri Andalusia

Tu la Tuan Puteri. Dulu, Sultan Mahmud nok ko Puteri, puteri tokse. Nok jambatey mah la begapo. Mano ado ore nok wi. Loni, mano ado ore nok doh.

-Magika.

Moral of the story, Jangan Jual Mahal.

Jangan sampai jadi Puteri An(ak) Da(ra) L(anjut) Usia.

Haha.


image : google magika.

Hello, meet Alfred.

Sometimes, fathers; they just know.

 

Tengok anak dia sedih, pening, confused, moody, die tau Acer Aspire One will cheer her up.

 

'Ambiklah kakak, Ayah bukan guna pon'.

 

heee heee walaupun bukan BlackBerry Playbook.

 

Walaupun bukan sofa.

 

'Sofa? Sofa? Budak ni cakap sofa apa dia ada hal!!!!"

 

Haha. Little things cheer you up you know.

 

ps: Orang dah tak sudi, kita pon tak hingin tau tak?

 

All good.

I have been showered with loves :D

Man City menang. Real Madrid menang. Tidur lena!

Tiket bas habis, tadehal. Ade Ezaroyani boleh tumpang.

Tak dapat kawen dengan Sani. Takpe. Dapat pegi wedding die cukup.


Nanti I dress lawa-lawa. Bia you nyesssaa kawen ngan anak cik wok ayah su (quote yommies n kaykies).

I'm having a good time. Hope this stays.

Its all good, babeh. Good.

Happy. Contented. Beyond.

Alhamdulillah.

Celebration of Love and Friendship.

Raya yang lebih bermakna :)

We are all adults. When did that happen? - Grey

22 Ramadhan.


'I'm gonna miss this when I'm gone. Like, a whole lot.'

24 Ramadhan 2010.



Maggie Ayem, Nescafe original, Derek Sheperd.
12.55pm, @ Office.

Office or no Office, raya tetap kena raikan.
Selamat Menjamu Selera.

Hadiah Merdeka

Ayah mandikan Aaron yang dah berbulan tak mandi. I masih belum merdeka dari menjadi seorang anak yang bergantung kepada mama dan ayah hehe.

I tumpangkan a colleague from Kerteh to Kuantan and dia belanja I minyak kereta Full. How rare is that?

Today, berbuka di Johnny's and was suprised bila kawan Ayah who was eating next table paid for me and brother.

Alhamdulillah. Rezeki Ramadhan.

Terima kasih semua. Semoga Allah limpahkan rahmat dan rezeki yang berlipat kali ganda.

Korang macamana?

The joy of being home

One of the many-many things; the bottomless football games.



It gets better when watched with father or brother, or even mother. even the same game again and again :) (albeit not in spain damn it!)

Berbuka tadi, nasi kerabu kuning dan ayam percik putih (homemade yum!). Besok sahur Sup Kaki dan berbuka nasi beriyani, juga homemade.

Ini lebih baik dari Buffet RM98.90 hotel La Meridien KL, yang belum pasti kehalalannya :P

Dan ini untuk DJ XFM yang judmental; you suck.
Cheryl, dan Samad; F you, F her too!

Pesan Kak Muna, "Mencari suami kaya bukan materialistik, tapi realistik"

Hell yeah she's now driving an Audi. Walk her talk isnt it? *idola

Wallahualam.

Remember Me

To those girls who were born with a big brother;


The guardian Angel, protects and loves you, unconditionally.

I'd give the world to be in your place, but that's just impossible.
No matter how suck they are, just know that you're lucky.

I'm grateful, but envious. You girls are lucky :)

"You once told me, our fingerprints don't fade from the lives we touch. Is that true for everybody, or is it just poetic bullshit? ," Tyler.

Remember Me; eats you from inside.

Rama Sinta

'Beb, kau tau tak ape maksud Rama Sinta?'

'Tak beb. Ape?'

'Ramadhan Sepi Tanpa Cinta.'

Tapi Ramadhan I tidak sepi tanpa kasih sayang.

Bestie + Mekar; walaupun tak ramai, tapi masih sama. *group hug*

Lalim; walaupun jauh, tapi masih sama :) *kiss on the cheek*

Bebeb; walaupun sudah lama, tapi masih sama *lambung lambung* haha

Superkazens; walaupun selalu, juga tetap sama *rinduu*



Ini Cinta I.
Ramadhan ini lebih cool dan tenang. Alhamdulillah :)


ps. terima kasih Chelsea dan Arsenal sebab bagi 6 gol each sampai I puas hati craving bolasepak (dan juga Chamakh, Fabregas dan van Persie auwww!)