Falling Slowly

I don't know you.

But I want you.

- glan hansard, once ost













I want you more than only in my dreams.



I want you here.





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Nisfu Syaaban =)

Alhamdulillah berjaya puasa hari ini. I remembered last year I didnt get a chance to. Samada I period or I just missed it lah. Macam eh bila nisfu? EH DAH LEPAS DAHH LAA. macam sangat kecewa.

Berbuka sangat sedap. Alhamdullilah.


Bak kate Aoki Lee Simons, semoga semua manusia di seluruh dunia dapat menikmati makanan sesedap ini :D

separuh jalan je lagi nak masuk Ramadhan. lepas tu nak raya. jeng kerenggg pk duit raya mane nak korek. haha. Che Hani korek tabung banyak sangat taun ni anak2! mungkin satu angpow kne kongsi 2 org.

And inception, MY GOD bes gile. I selalu overreacted kan, tapi ceita ini memang bes. kalau I boleh buat satu graphic-o-meter mcm Effi Obefiend, I letak Inception rendah sikit je dari Fermat's Room. Atas sikit dari Vantage Point.

Bes Gile NAK TENGOK LAGI KOT!

Ah today is such a bliss. Puasa, Inception, and Futsal pakai baju baru :D:D:D. Loving ittt.

And and and, MARCUS DAPAT BAJU BARU YAHUU.


Ok dah nk tedo. nitey nite!

Inception-ed

Hey what do we call this syndrome.

Bila tak puasa seratus jenis makanan terpikir 'Bila puasa nak makan inilah!'
Tapi bila puasa tak tahu nak berbuka dengan apa.

Bila tak bole bukak blogger seribu macam benda nak cakap.
Tapi bila boleh access seribu blank kene diisi.

Syndrome ini mungkin namanya gila.

By the way keajaiban mendapatkan Alfred sekarang dah semakin impossible.
Kalau dibandingkan, kemungkinan saya bercinta dengan Azlan Iskandar si squash hottie adalah lebih tinggi.

Haih. Hot siot Azlan.

Baju Futsal dah dapat. Horray. Boleh mula bermain dengan semangat baru.

Nombor satu macam Iker Casillas. Auw.

Dahla. ini totally random. Jom tengok Inception. I think I'm the only person left in this world yang belum tengok cerita ini kot. Loser.

Alfred

Dalam hati I kini cuma ada Alfred.

Siang berangan, malam bermimpi.

I tengah mengharapkan keajaiban untuk dapat Alfred.

Alfred, please, be mine.
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No more Jai Ho; it's Waka Waka now!

I have just came back from KL. went there for my cousin's Suprise Birthday celebration, thanks to his girlfriend.



Hope you enjoyed it!

It was the best since Natrah. we all gathered in one room and sing and scream and later went for supper and ate and gossip. Ha ha.

Anyway, thanks cousins and girlfriends. You guys are simply the best :D



with Aisha and Ieyza at Starbucks Midval.


Cousins at Redbox The Curve.


Besties for Magh's Birthday at Magh's crib.


Bebeb at Gardens.


and no pic of couz at Williams. Biaselaa dah makan semua lupa :P

Till then, lots of love.

Today I made the best goal ever.

Higuain slash villa slash muller.

Ehem. Bkn nak perasan. Tp I cilok the defend and keeper and goal. Yahuu.

Hehe. But I must admit we played 4 on 4 and dah 50 minit main kott soo macam penat dahh semue orang haha.

Hehe. Tu pon nak kecoh. Biaselaa sekali sekali keeper main forwardd :p

Btw, schweini is considering real. Janganlaa babyy mainlaa munchen lagi pleasee :(
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Amanda Casillas binti Iker Casillas.

12 July 2010.

Dear Amanda,

This picture was taken on the night when your father went to fight for Spain and I have to stay back at home.

I cannot travel with you inside me.

Papa did actually win, he did actually kiss Aunt Sara in the news, but baby, remember, real WAGs are not allowed in SA. So that is why Mama was with Uncle Koba and Uncle Aizu yang gebu.

So baby, at anytime you look at this pic, just remember how I sacrificed going to Soccer City for you and spending time with these two idiots surely wasn't easy too.



Luckily there was Aunt Bella Swang.



Mummayh still love you sweetie.


TQ Papa bawak balik World Cup for Mami.

Your mum,
Hani Casillas.

Rojak lebih sedap dari Oren.

So spain berjaya membuktikan eventho diorang malas nak buat gol diorang tetap menang.

 

'it doesnt matter, we still win!' kata peminat-peminat angkuh Spain.

 

Blerghhhh. Sportmanship spirit habis!

 

Tapi Spain memang patut menang. Because kalau Nederland menang, kamera FIFA akan menangkap gambar-gambar Van der Vart, Kuyt, De Jong, dan Robben di bilik persalinan.

 

Adakah menggiurkan?

 

Instead, kita dapat lihat body ketak-ketak Sergio Ramos dan IKER CASILLAS dalam keadaan topless.

 

BLERGHHHHHH. Sportmanship baby sportmanshippppp!

 

Apa-apa pun next world cup ramai-ramai sokong Nederland pulak dalam usaha mereka memperjuangkan the first star ever on their jersy. 

 

Dengan berlabuhnya tirai World Cup kali ini, I akan mulakan azam I untuk menjadi pengikut tetap Bundesliga dan menyokong Bayern Munich.

 

Next euro and world cup is for Germany baby. Germany!

 

ps: My Hero Thomas Muller got both Adidas Golden Boots Award ANDDDD Hyundai Young Player Award. Mamat ni ada lagi 4 world cup kottttt bole main! Adakah bakal jadi Legenddd?

 

pps: Terima Kasih Sunday Blues travel 5 jam sorang mari teman I tengok bola kat Kuantan. Alololo tomeynyyyeeerrr. Friends is better :P

Oranje vs La Roja

Tonight is not Brazil against Argentina, like many would predict when they both progress smoothly from group stage.

For me tonight is fight between Sneijder and Villa.

Whoever nail the game will take both the world cup for the first time and steal the golden boot from Klose.

My heart says it's Spain, but my ego wants it to be Netherland.

Whichever it is, Die Nasionalmanshaft already take home the bronze medal. Not the best, but good enough.

Tonight is going to be the feast for the eyes; Casillas, Fabregas, Torres, Villa, and Van Persie, and feast for the ears too; as the Sunday Blues will be here with me.

I'm looking forward a good and dramatic game; just for fun sake.

See you tomorrow!
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Third!

Yesss dah smgt blk nk tgk WC!

Three for Germany!

Besok, kamannnnnn dutches take down La Rojaaaa!

Wuhu oranje is the color to go!
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Keajaiban tak pernah ada

So, selepas 2 hari Germany tewas di tangan Spain, how am I doing now?

I can say, no good, no better.

I am like dat. I'm obsessive and emotional and I can't help it.

Everytime I close my eyes now, the only nightmare I have is the vision of Puyol heads the ball into the goal. I could cry.

I still wonder apa kurang and apa salah Germany hari tu. Adik saya kata, its not that Germany was bad, but Spain is good. That good.

Sebagus-bagus mana pun Spain ia tetap pasukan dari dunia bukan dari syurga.

But miracles just chose not to happen.

Hari Ahad ini berbeza amat dengan Ahad minggu lepas. Ahad lalu I gembira berjersi Germany pusing satu Kuala Terengganu dan beli Blackberry baru.

Ahad esok I mungkin murung menunggu adakah Netherland akan membalas dendam terhadap Spain.

Itu pun satu keajaiban.
Tapi ya, keajaiban tidak pernah berlaku.

Apa pun kata sotong, burung, gajah, harimau, atau kuda, malam ini kalau German menang 14-0 pon, tak ada maknanya.

Cuma bermakna kalau Klose pulang dengan kasut emas dan Belanda pulang dengan Piala Dunia;

Isnin saya mungkin sama seperti Ahad minggu lepas.

Tapi; keajaiban itu tidak pernah berlaku.

I try to get over it Kerel, but I just can't. I'm hopeless like dat.
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So there goes my hopes =(

Di rumah saya, ada 5 orang.

Ayah dan Mama penyokong Netherland.
Adik-adik penyokong Spain.
Saya penyokong Germany.

By default, Germany already lost even in my house.

Ahh. 2014 nak kena belasah England, Argentina, Brazil lagi. tak sayang ke effort selama ni haa?

I geram tapi I terpaksa Redha.

Jumpa 4 tahun lagi.

Germany, Spain, Verdict, and Hope.

Germany has come this far. This is FAR babeh. This is FARRR.

They struggled at first, with one win and one lost and one match againts leading of the group WITH their main forward off the field.

But they survived, albeit very hardly. Then they have passed Round 16 and Quarter Final legendarily. 8 goals altogether. That was a record.

Now, they are just one step KLOSEr to gain their 4th star on the jersey.

But they have to match Spain.

Spain barely survived too. They also struggled with one win, one lost, and final match against group lead, WITH low goal difference. One goal from SUI and dats it. But they made it.

Survived with only one goal against Portugal at Round 16, and another against Paraguay at Q.Final, they are looking forward 'true opponent' from Germany at Semi Finals.

There must be a reason why despite tough fight, Spain still survived.

My Verdict is;

Whoever score first will win the entire match. Serbia and Switzerland both gained their victory over these 2 giants because when they scored, these so-called giants ultimately lost their confidence and demotivated.

Unlike Italy and England who kept on fighting; but what a luck.

Spain has the world's best strikers; not one or two but 3. Germany is fighting with less one chance; Muller is off the game but Spain may consider to bench Torres. So there's balance.

Whatever it is; bola itu bulat. Tho Germany made a clear sway to the semi; Spain must have its own magic too that put them where they are now.

I hope that out of magic Germany will survive this too.

Say Hello to Marcus.

Boyfee baru.



I tak ada penjelasan why I beli BB instead of iPhone.
I tak ada penjelasan why I beli Bold instead of Storm.
I tak ada penjelasan why I beli pakej Celcom bla bla.

I have no explanation. It was impulsive. Really.

Tanya Kartika Malini.
I even dapat parking depan pejabat Celcom yang busy waktu tu. Rezeki.

All I know is I'm loving it <3!

*Marcus is named after Japanese hotness footballer, Marcus Tulio Tanaka *drool*

ps: I tak ada penjelasan sebab apa I tak buat title tarikh tarikh tarikh lagi.

4 July 2010 - Sunday Blues.

*excuse my accent!*

Hari ni I gong pergi Sunday Blues pakai jersey Germany.



Orang bukan sokmo menang EMPAT KOSONG WEHHHH so sekali sekala gong hapas ape salahnya.

Akhirnya dapat pegi Gossip Kitchen, Karaoke Jamban and The 2 Cafe whatsoever yang digembar gemburkan. Sedap sungguh ahhh tapiii.






Dok puas puas jumpe set Sunday Blues bakpe tahuuuu. Akhirnya, I, Aaron, Alfee dan Marcus malam baru SAMAPI.

Ehem. Esok I introduce siapa Marcus ok.
Nanite.

4 July 2010

Dengan lafaz Bismillah. Tuhan sekalian alam.

Alhamdulillah. hari ini German menang lagi =D menang besar tapau Argentina sampai habis.

Betapa Ya Allah banyaknya dugaan I nak tengok match malam ni.

Mula-mula I janji dengan Seema. Kita nak sama-sama tengok dekat Perhentian. But something came up I have to cancel.

Then I janji dengan geng sunday blues.

lepas tu I dapat invitation dari Estranged, ajak tengok sama-sama. Sunday blues menang lawan Azwin Andy Malik. RARE!

Dah ready ready nak pegi KT tengok dengan Sunday Blues, I dapat mesej dari mama cakap 'Mama and Ayah kalau boleh nak tengok bola dengan kakak...'

Sooo I percaya berkat I dengar cakap Mama Ayah I mungkin Germany menang.

Sekali. Alhamdulillah!

I rasa selagi I tak rasmikan jersey I tu pergi tengok match, selagi tu lah Germany akan main. Which is true.

Penatlahhh nak basuh jersey lepas niii.

Btw I ada satu teori. All stars akan balik without really shining. first Ronaldo. Then Kaka. Then Messi.

I THINK tonight, TORRES will follow them.

Goal? Zilch!

3 July 2010 - Sedikit tips daripada Tuan Puteri.

Now with Portugal, Brazil, and Japan leaving the South Africa, and Suarez not being able to play in all Uruguay's match after this, kita dah kekurangan beberapa wajah indah untuk ditatapi.



Bye bye hunkies.

But fret not, we still have Netherland, Argentina, Spain, and of course Germany.

So fix your eyes to Van Persie, Alonso, Torres, Villa, Higuain, Messi, Mueller, Oezil, Khedira, and of course Casillas.



Malam ini mungkin malam terakhir kita dapat menatapi wajah mereka. One of them will go home *hopeful*

So hargailah mereka sementara stok masih adaa.

Love,
Mrs Iker Casillas.

3 July 2010

Hari ini, I akan menceritakan cerita tentang dunia penuh ketidakadilan mengamalkan double standard dan diskriminasi terhadap perempuan huduh.

Bismillah.

Pukul 9.50 saya dan Futsies tiba die Coffee Street untuk menonton Brazil vs Netherland. perlu diingat saya bukan sokong mana2 kumpulan tersebut, Saya Tegar Germany! Atas semangat kesukanan dan bola sepak (serta Van Persie dan Kaka yang yummy) kita berenam sampai jugak ke kedai big screen yang dah mula penuh.

Ada lebih kurang 8 orang sedang berdiri menunggu tempat. kesemuanya lelaki.

Tiba tiba Nurul nampak seorang jejaka kacak lantas ditegurnya. Oh, Ruben rupanya. Ini first time I jumpa Ruben. Selalu dengar nama saje. Rupenye Ruben dah nampak I Selasa lepas waktu game Spain Portugal. Malu I.

Ruben jemput kita orang duduk bersama. Tapi Ruben hanya ada satu meja kecil dan satu kerusi. Bagaimana?

Kami nampak ada sekumpulan lelaki bertiga, umur lingkungan 30an (seorang bermuka Chinese Look pakai cap putih, seorang berjersey Brazil, Seorang lagi I tak nampak, tapi one of them I yakin mesti bawa Caldina) sedang dengan selfishnya duduk di meja panjang sambung tiga (kau paham tak, 3 meja kecil sambung2 jadi panjang) dan lebih kurang 6 kerusi kosong. So I pahamlah maybe kawan dia suruh chop, but to try our luck, kita orang pergilah minta. As expected haruslah mereka tak bagi.

Tapi last-last kitorang dapat jugalah meja orang lain. Cukuplah kerusi meja maka kami pon duduk.

Tiba-tiba datang 3 orang perempuan. Seksi. I rasa umur baru 19-20. Lawa. Mekap macam nak pergi clubbing. Wangi. I tau sorang pakai Lancome Miracle sorang pakai DKNY Green Apple. rambut panjang mengurai. Baju jarang seluar ketat.

Tiba-tiba, lelaki lingkuan 30an penyokong Brazil terus offer kerusi dan meja yang tadinya kawan dia punya tu. WAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. Mana mak tak naik darah you ol. Terusssssssssssss mak sokong Netherland situ situ jugak.

Dan hasilnya tengoklah. Doa orang yang teraniaya dimakbulkan Allah tau. terus Brazil balik kena tapau dek Belanda. Tak ke malu you'ol?

Yang besnye bila tinggal 10saat last I jeritlah countdown kann 10..9..8.. tu tiba tiba die sound OI DIAMLAH PEREMPUAN! hoi lelaki kurang hajar tak ada telur! Kepala hotakkkkkau!

I pedulik apa sampai pengadil tiup wisel I bangun joget joget. Hah Hah bodoh! balik bakar je jersey kau x pon lenyek dengan caldina korang tu.

Ha ade pekdah ke korang buat2 gentleman dengan perempuan lawa tadi tu? dapat ke korang heret diorang balik? yang lagi besnye dekat dekat nak abis I nampak boyfie boyfie si hotness datang menjemput. HAHAHA

Pulanglah lelaki pendiskriminasi kaum wanita huduh dengan kekecewaan awek lari dan BRAZIL KALAH!

Padan muka kau!

1 July 2010

Dearest Raja, Ain, and Seema.

Right now most prolly you guys are already on your way to Kuala Besut for Perhentian. Heck I should be on my way too. But something happened and dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki I'm so sorry I have to back out.

First the leave issue, then the Uncle issue. Just now mother called and asked me to talk to my uncle. I couldn't. I cannot listen to his voice. It breaks my heart each time I remember that he's in pain.

I'm just not in the right place and mood for a holiday.

I know I seemed so selfish but I've talked to Raja and I know she understands. I'm very hoping she would find the best way to deliver this news to you two.

I am torn between being selfish and inconsiderate or insensitive and immature but whatever I picked I'll be the bitch in the situation so I took the risk.

You guys more than anyone else know that for me, my family comes first. I am so sorry that you guys have to bear with this fact every time something came up but trust me, I have gone beyond my power and will to make it happen and convince myself that it is ok, BUT everything seems to come to no avail.

Now you guys have to bear with all the cost that I should be bearing. I apologize but the best I can do is to at least promise I will make it up to you.

At least, the next time we gather, we will have enough people to play cards :D

(but I totally understand if you won't take my words anymore. 1st Brunei, then Perhentian. I keep on backing out ain't i? bad!)

I'd rather not be in Perhentian and regret it for the entire lifetime than to be there but regret it should something happen (knock knock *God Forbid*).

Hope you guys enjoy your stay. I'm going to unpack all my swimming attires, new aviator glasses, skirts, shortpants, sleevies, sunblock lotion and my new flip flop back to where it belongs. Until next time. maybe next time.

Again, truly from the bottom of my heart, Sorry.



You guys are still the best <3

Love,
Zac.