2018 Concerts

2018, 2019 was concert years for me.
What can I do dahhh time time ni lahh semua decide nak buat comeback lah apa.
Tu pon I still have to miss some, but I already went to like a LOT.
habis duit aku, tak kasi chan.

KRU - 5 May 2018

Istana Budaya KL

KRU weh. KRU. Serious. How can one possibly miss it. I basically grew up with their songs (this line is going to be a lot). My first cassette ever was KRU. kumpul duit (maybe not) back in 1996, kaset Cherrina tu. ke Awas? yang ada lagu janji tinggal janji tu.

Dulu kat dungun tu ada cinema, the only movie yg i sempat tengok di REX Dungun tu was Awas. Pastu REX tu pon dah hancur. tahun bila pon aku dah lupa, darjah 4 dah pandai g tengok movie ngan cousins. My parents are sporting.

I paid 150 (or something like that, lupa) and definitely, worth every penny. Last concert, habis semua lagu dia main, Dah aku pon macam orang gila dalam tu. Memang gila. KRU masih energetic, semput sikit sikittt sangat. Yang penting, Yusry Hensem haha haha. 

RUFFEDGE - 5 August 2018

KL Life Center

Kalau KRU tu zaman sekolah rendah, ruffedge ni zaman sekolah menegah lah. Masa they announced nak comeback tu, aku dah datang insane. Hari hari dengar lagu ruffedge pastu keluar lagu baru pulak yang memang best, makin la gila. Tiket RM128. Standing zone, diri belakang-belakang tapi tak apa pasal I kan model, kawan-kawan yang pegi sekali pon model so ok.

The best part of the whole show was, ada satu group laki ni diri belakang kitorang, and suara diaorang ya Allah sedapnyaaaa haha. balik tu I siap siasat dan tak syak lagi diorang banyak main gig zaman-zaman R&B Hip Hop dulu, patutlahhh sedap suara.

Dah tambah dengan showmanship Ruffedge yang memang Da Bomb, suara tak berubah. Azan dan mode tuuuu please sing at my weddingg. Sein and Zain yang handsome. I fell in love so many times that night.

TULUS - 19 September 2018

Istana Budaya KL

5 javajazz, tak pernah dapat tengok. Sebab tulus, selalu penuh hall, beratur nk masuk sampai habis show. Kali ni, puassss hati 1.5 hours. Puas ke? Sebab ada orang dah ‘ dok sabo nak g javajazz next year’ Orang tu lah, yang convinced I untuk pegi tengok tulus ni, walaupun I dah almost not going because "I went to so many concerts this year" not knowing apa nasib aku tahun depan haha.

Suprisingly, ramai ya yang kenal Tulus kat Malaysia ni. fullhouse lah!

Hujan and Masdo - 7 October 2018

MAEPS Serdang

Hujan ni bukanlah my top favourite ke apa. But siapa yang tak ada crush pada Noh Hujan circa 2006 - 2008 kannnn. He was the thing kot that time. Pernah sekali tengok Hujan Live kt wuhuu 2008. And I know Raja memang crush terok dengan Noh, tiket pon RM50 je so marilahhh kita.

Dah hujan tu, konsert pon hujan lah. But we had so much fun that night walaupun basah kuyup, and pakai selipar. Makanya, esoknya I cannot feel my legs lah. 

Done for 2018, next, 2019!

Rindu Yang Tidak Berpenghujung

We lost our dearly Ayah Chik last Saturday.
It felt surreal.
Perhaps because we just lost Ayah Ngah 9 months ago, even that is not processed yet.
The whole 18 hours of witnessing his last moments keep on playing in me head on repeat.

I was on half day leave on Friday, was supposed to accompany Yan to pick up her SCKLM kit in KL.
We were having lunch at Lubuk Bangku when Mama called.
Asking me to go visit Ayah Chik promptly because his condition was getting worst.

Ayah Chik was already in CVSKL for about one week but NOT ONE of us actually visited him because we thought... nothing was serious.
But clearly we didn't know better.

He laid flat in the ICU, there were about 20 doctors and nurses around him.
One of the nurses was even standing on the bed reassuring herself could apply most pressure on Ayah Chik's chest.
We were told to leave the ICU.
The doctor told us that it's not looking good.

Soon the ICU waiting room is filled with more and more familiar faces.
From Zohor to Asar to Maghrib to Isyak, we just couldn't leave.
We took turns to sit on the floor, stood near the elevator, slept on the couch.
From babies to elderly.
Mama and Ayah arrived from Terengganu.
No one is allowed in the ICU, but we still wait outside.

12am, 28th September 2019, the doctor let everyone in the ICU.
There was nothing else they could do.
All we can do is to be next to him and be with him.

We saw the BP dropping.. from 80 to 50.. to 40..
We were so tired, we took turns to take a nap..
10, 20, 30 minutes

6am.. we all prayed subuh.. I was done first, so I went to his room
There were only Abe, JJ, CikBi.. and we saw his BP dropped...
Abe stopped whispering to his ears, he just stood there, clueless and still
"Sejuk.. tak ada darah.. sejuk.." he said that a few times..
And then a nurse came "dia dah nak takde dah ni.."

he looked so peaceful, not at all struggling during his last breaths..
I stood back.. in the corner of the room, couldn't hold my tears as I saw one by one coming in the room
and in a blink of an eye the room is filled with people who loved him dearly...
and whom he has loved his entire life
BP still dropping.. from 19..18...
the doctor declared the time, 6.30 am, 28th September 2019.

We lost him.
It still feels so surreal.

We miss you Ayah Chik.
We miss all your antics.
We Love you.

Coincidence

"If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence. Tom had finally learned there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now. Tom was... he was pretty sure."

500 Days of Summer.

This too shall pass.

World Cup 2018

So world Cup is back. and as usual, my body clock gone haywire and all, but not so usual that Germany exit on group stage! man..i was so heartbroken..

But it doesn't stop there. Well football goes on, so I continue watching with no particular favourite. wishing Germany is still here haha.

And... I do not only miss Germany team. It's so different. I don't feel belong here. it's not the same. Not to mention that Italy is not in the tournament at all. Germany departed earlier. And so many familiar faces have retired.

man growing up is so hard. I have always laughed at my mother everytime she said "my favourite is rud gulit" mom that is so yesterday.. but now i get it.

I miss Shweinsteiger, Podolski, Lahm, Iker Casillas, Diego Forlan, Marchisio, PIRLOOOOO, Totti, Buffon (to name a few...) it's so harddddd

Ahh..life goes on..

Haram

Not a big fan of lagu lagu mainstream tapi lagu ni memang Lit.

Lagu ni sesuai untuk orang yang ada hubungan sejenis, hubungan dengan suami orang, hubungan hubungan terlarang.

Rasa macam nak bagi dekat semua yang I tau ada hubungan hubungan terlarang ni haha

Still Here, Guys

I have a problem with people telling others don't do something they have never done before.

If you have never been to some place, don't tell others "Don't go there" for a fear that you read online / heard from someone (who most probably read somewhere/heard from someone too).

If people want to travel, let them travel and tell the tale. You, have no right to stop them (or make them feel bad about it).

True Love

It all started here

and ends here

It was good while it lasted, but I think I found my closure.

You have no idea how much this whole thing has shifted my life in a way that I could never imagine.

How much money I have spent, how much time I have sacrificed, how many friends I have made.

Those are the moments that will forever live in my mind.

And while they are still good, with a heavy heart I think I'm saying goodbye. 

Cinta itu membebaskan. Jika ia kembali. Itulah cinta sejati.